So my (25M) two best friends one from highschool the other I met a little after ended up hooking up and keeping it from me.

So a little back ground my male friend and I started talking and becoming freshman year. We really bonded over music and video games and he challenged me to want to be a better person and start getting better grades. He really changed my life and helped me out a lot I do consider him like a brother witch is a phrase and title I don't take lightly. And my female friend we started talking a few years after highschool admittedly because I had a crush on her for the longest time but we got really close over the years and she helped me alot through a difficult time in my life we ended up dating for a few months but neither of us were in the place to make it work but eventually came back to each other as friends and have been closer then ever.

Okay so I only introduced these two to each other about a year ago and they were both aware of each other just never had the opportunity to all hang out together. But my guy best friend knew exactly what happened with me and my female best friend and how while our friendship was the most important thing to me then a romantic relationship but I did still have pretty strong feelings for her at the time and but I would never jeopardize any of that and make things weird with her. Any ways it came out a few months ago that pretty much since the moment I introduced them they were hooking up behind my back granted it wasn't too often they said it happened like 5 times what ever not important.

It's just I had told them both on separate occasions that the idea of that makes me uncomfortable not just cause of historys. But I knew the two of them as individuals and knew they would never work out. If I had even the slightest thought they could make it work and make each other happy id shut my mouth and let things happen you know. But I didn't want it to come to the part of having to choose and I told em if it ever did come to it I wasn't going to it'd just go back to hanging out in the individual friend groups

But of course one of them wants to get upset and mad that I'm still friends with the other. And the fact that I told them not to do this for this exact reason just for them to put me in the situation I didn't want to be in really upsets me feel like I've been talking to a wall and that my friends don't respect me. Like I know I have no reason to be upset no one did anything wrong technically they're both consenting adults I wasn't in a relationship with her at any point any of this was happening but I feel help but feel betrayed by the only two people I have in my life. I just feel so abandoned and alone and don't know how to cope or feel