Recently I read the checklist for narcissistic traits and I just realize I qualified to call myself one.

And it's fine. I think there should be a healthy boundary for Narcissism to exist without posing any harm on myself or others. Here's what I do as a Narcissist:

1. I love myself way too much. I posted a shit tons of my photos on social media and praise myself every time I look at myself. It's because growing up I was never praised, never complimented once, it was all body shaming and comparison to models (yup, models). So now I'm giving myself all the self-love that I never received in childhood. I know where I am, I'm not that pretty, but to me, I am fucking beautiful.

2. I may have exaggerated my achievements, to the people around me, because I never received validation as a kid. It was either "you're not good enough" or "You're so smart/brilliant/amazing" from those who wanted to kiss my mom's ass.

3. I do things to be viewed as a good person. I'd share my sorrow, praise, love. Or appear as a person full of love and care for humanity so that I'll be praised as a kind person. I'd do things to make me look good. Like do charity, give homeless people money, openly praise my friends for their achievements. But sometimes my indifference to death scares me. Let's say I can feel nothing discussing about a city being bombed.

4. It might seem like I listen to you. I don't actually listen. It's all an act. I like to listen to my thoughts and what I have to say more. This is something I'm working on improving though.

5. To those I hate, I place them below my feet, no matter how much social success they have, they'll always be worse than me. Their presence means nothing to me.

6. know I'm better than some people but not everyone at the same time.

7. I might have manipulated people to have a nice perspective about me. But if they insisted on proving how bad I am. I'm capable of showing them (argue until they lose, blacklist, and I give no damn fuck about their mental health).