Like the title says, I have developed feelings for my cousin and I feel like crap because of it. For some context, I'm 24 and they're 25. We were super close as kids but grew apart in middle and high school. We went out separate ways, I went to college and they became a parent. Recently they've been having some issues with their partner and I told them they need to fill out a restraining order and leave their ass. Well during this time, we've been talking on the phone constantly. I told them yesterday how I felt about them and they giggled and toyed around with the idea of running away together, but tonight, their tune changed. Apart they were weirded out by it, but they still wanna be close with me and go out to dinner and I'm thinking it's not a good idea because I'm gonna look at them and still have feelings. I have a pretty good idea of how the family would take it and I get it, but at the same time I'd be willing to try getting away from the family. I'm sort of ashamed in a way because now I look at other girls and I'm either oblivious of their interests or I don't want them and I find myself wanting my cousin more. What do you guys think of the situation?