Is it wrong with me to have been so emotional my whole life that my emotions controlled me not and just my actions but controlled my fears and anxieties and depression and I fed into them because I was emotional and just overall as a child and a young adult I was definitely over emotional. And sometimes I think I am still. But I've proven that thought wrong. I gain momentary access to real emotions. But quickly shut them down. So I don't run away with them and I don't take it too far. So in the process of all that there has been a complete absence of emotion and have become very emotionless. And withdrawn. I tend not to think about my emotions anymore. And don't care for them at all because I run away with them and make stupid decisions in the process. So I've become come very comfortable and okay with being numb and emotionless I think of it as one of my strengths now. But it's also made me very blunt and rude at times and my consideration for most things has diminished definitely. But is it wrong for me to continue to use my numbness and absence of emotion to help me get through the day-to-day. Is it wrong that that whole concept is basically me just not dealing with anything and leaving it on standby like it either never happen or it happened but haven't processed it. It's kind of like everything is sitting on standby waiting for the day I push play. And I don't want a press play.. I enjoy the strength of not having to feel and overthink and run away with emotion I like that I seem more calm. But no it's unhealthy to leave things unresolved and on dealt with so kind of stuck between rock and a very hard place