Hey. Again.

I'm sitting here being unstable after telling my crush I liked him. Second rejection in 5 years from him.

So after him flirting with me for the past 2 and a half months, he asks "hey u/NB, do you love me?" sarcastically. I say "of course not you dolt."

Today, I go and tell him via a letter how I've fallen for him. Immediate

"hey. erm...

erm...

...

I do not like you in this way. I like someone else. Soz."

(I replied "thank god I'm more mature, I would not have been able to do this.")

"so friends? Still?"

Which resulted in me moping around for most of the day until I finally snapped (when he threw food at me, which resulted in me swearing and hiding from the weird kids who don't like me.)

So we discuss that we're kind of brothers and sisters, and that even though I have feelings for him, nothing is changing.

No hugs were given even though I was/am pretty shook up.

So why did I give away a piece of heart to this kid? Because he was incredibly flirty with me but now I see that his heart belongs to our friend who's leaving.

I'm just rattled. He was being obnoxiously flirty for the past 1/2 month (AND telling me he loved me) with me, but it was all a game, a fraud, a prank marked for failure and for "lawls" (oh my god wouldn't it be funny if we pranked u/nb and made her fall in love with me and then make fun of her when she's licking her wounds....)

And then I'm expected to walk around smiling like nothing has happened.

However, I have a massive support crew (minus my best friend, who was off at the psych office suffering burn out and exam stress) including some nice guys who lift.

tldr: Emotional wreck is pissed off after her crush friendzoned her after flirting with her for <2 months and then says "hey i like someone else" after being told she likes him back. I'd like some advice on how to deal with this jerk who I'd love to remain friends with.