I (22tf) broke up with my partner (23f) this morning, we'd only been dating for about a week, but the relationship itself was big deal for me so this really hurts

I traveled 2.5 hours to pick up her medication and see her. When I arrived at her house she was already really drunk and started saying the n word (she is white as white can be) and wouldn't stop despite politely being asked to stop by me and her housemates. She then flip out saying we were ganging up on her, stormed off and slammed her door and leaving me in the lounge room. Her housemates understandably went and hid in their rooms, leaving me alone.

I stayed out there for 45 minutes unsure of what to do. I couldn't go home as it was to late and I don't drive. She eventually came out and asked if I was going to come to bed, I asked if she would apologise, she was unsure of what she had to apologise for. I went for a cigarette because I couldn't be around her. She came and gave a half hearted apology and had to pause and think when I asked what she was apologising for. I went to bed with her but couldn't sleep.

She woke up at around 7am and started riled up about us all "ganging up on her" and start saying a bunch of transphobic slurrs and saying things like "there's to many trans people around me, why can't I have someone normal" and "what's wrong with all you trans people" (me and her housemates are all transgender) so I told her that "if you have too many trans people in your life here's one less, goodbye"

All of this has really messed with me, my previous relationship absolutely destroyed me and left me unable to fathom having another relationship for a really long time and for this one to go so down hill so fast makes me think that I was right in thinking that I don't deserve love