Therapy has been an on/off endeavor (insurance becoming out of network and having to change clinics, providers every so often). Not much luck with engagement/finding community online or in person. Takes me a long while to open up in person and even then I just struggle to articulate/share for an extended period of time without feeling drained. I can't shake the thoughts of escapism (escape from a life in this world) and not sure I ever will. Although they may say it, I feel like most people in reality just don't have the mental patience or allowance to engage with me without feeling like it would be more of a negative influence to them. (ADHD/ASD & MDD)