I tore my ACL and had the surgery earlier this year. I was at what I would consider my peak when the injury happened and life just hasn’t been the same since. It feels like my life has been on pause just waiting for things to get better but it just never seems to get better. I’m about to turn 20 and it already feels like my life is over.

It’s hard because none of my friends seem to understand or care about this as much as I do. Practising and competing in my sport was everything to me now I just have so much free time and it’s honestly fucking making me crazy. Some days are quite good if I’m doing something else but I’m by myself I just start crying uncontrollably out of nowhere and I don’t have a desire to do anything else.

Today I tried working out but I just broke down in tears in the middle I don’t even know why.

I just feel like a loser not being able to go up stairs or walking a long distance without being struck by severe pain and swelling and the possibility that my life will never be the same is killing me I honestly don’t even feel like doing rehab anymore I’m just burnt out I don’t know where else or who else to talk to this about