I want to start by saying I don’t obsess I don’t stalk. I don’t go looking for her on the internet every day. There was this girl I knew in college, we met playing rugby. We really hit it off and one she asked me out after a night together. I was afraid plan and simple and I turned her down. It was the biggest mistake I’ve made so far. It’s been almost two years since then. Now there hasn’t been a single day that I haven’t thought about her. That my heart hasn’t yearned for her. I don’t know what to do. I’ve tried seeing other people they just don’t even compare I’ve tried burying myself in work/hobbies . I’ve tried traveling the globe but nothing has worked . I just don’t know what to do. And I needed to vent.

Edit: anyone have advice?