A combination of looks, personality traits, upbringing, the place where I grew up and the people i met determined that i never had much of a social life. I had a nice group of friends in high school but somehow i always felt like i never really fit in and also kind of invisible while everyone else around me seemed to be having the time of their lives. I also had verry little experience with girls. Now i'm a few years into university and it's even worse, i didn't manage to make any new friends and i feel like a loser. I can't watch a film or tv series where people socialize and end up having sex without thinking that i made all the wrong decisions, and i wonder if i'll ever experience something like that. I know it all sounds pretty pathetic and if you give off that vibe that's already a turn off for other people, but nowadays I don't really get any chances at socializing anyway. I'm holding out hope that maybe, after graduating and moving to a new place, i might be able to change something about it but part of me feels like if it hasn't happened so far, i'm doomed to be like this forever.