Tonight I lay in bed, sleepless and doing nothing but thinking of you. I can’t stop thinking about how much I miss your beautiful smile, loving eyes, and warm embrace and everything else about you. I know things might be tough right now, but I wanted to let you know that I love you, I appreciate you, I support you, and I’m proud of you. I know I used to not express that nearly enough or at all, and it’s something I regret. I apologize for messing things up before and I take full responsibility for all of it. I can promise you however that I am a changed person and I became a better man and I hope you’re seeing that with each passing day. If I could give you the world on a silver platter I would every day. You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me and I’ll always love you more than you could ever know. The Japanese have a practice of using gold to fix glass and pottery by melting gold in the cracks. Well I don’t know if I can give you any gold right now. However, I promise to do my best to repair our relationship with love, care, and trust. I miss “us” a lot. I miss you informing me how loud I snore and how I need a sleep study (I still need that sleep study). I miss our little dinner dates and us on the couch or in bed watching a movie together. I miss going to bed together and me having my arm wrapped around you. Those nights I had you in my arms, I went to sleep knowing I was the happiest man alive. I never loved anyone else more than I do you and I don’t think I ever will. You’re my rock. I love you.