im not okay. i havent been okay since i lost my nana this January & my girlfriend left me the same day i buried her. i havent been okay since i got back home from the funeral and lost both of my jobs. i havent been okay since i realized that im not worthy of love. im so tired & just want to end it all. i dont want to be alive anymore. i have no place here or anywhere. ive always been a waste. ive never been good at anything. ive never excelled at anything. there wasnt a one good thing ive ever been decent at. yet i keep trying. im tired of trying. im ready to just let go. no one would miss me. everyone will forget about me and keep on living life as intended. if reincarnation is real i dont want to come back. i hope whatever soul i have just doesnt keep going. goodbye.