I have always related more to females and gay men but am straight. I'm in my 30s now but in my early 20s I thought maybe I was bi and kissed a guy and found out I did not like the feeling at all and knew I was straight. But I find myself not liking straight men culture. Yes I find females attractive but talking to a dude about some woman's huge rack just doesn't sit well with me. I am constantly on "gay side" of almost all social media and find myself relating more to woman and gay men when it comes to their emotions and what they want out of life. It makes dating super hard and gets me depressed. I'm not a manly man. I love sports but also love musicals. I find gay and lesbian bars more comfortable to be in then a normal bar setting. It is just tough for me to express what I am to a potential date. I will be emotionally vulnerable and be there for almost anyone but I'm not going to build something by hand. Maybe I'm just rambling but I just want someone to understand me for me