I'm a 24 year old male whose not where he wants to be in life. So i guess heres the story

I immediately went to college for accounting after graduating high school, but I figured it wasn't for me after 2ish years, I also broke up with my long term gf around this time cause she never treated me right. (This all happened during 2020)

It was a new chapter in my life, but now I felt lost. I changed my major to eletrical engineering but I couldn't even finish the first semester.(beginning of 2021) I also met my ex at this time who moved in with me rather quickly and we had the longest relationship I've ever been in (3.5 years.) This was in the beginning of 2021 and at the time i had been renting 5 months prior.)

After that semester I worked with my dad for about 8 months which really sucked. I took his advice and ended up going back to college for accounting in the beginning of 2022. Well again I couldn't even finish the semester. Me and my exgirlfriend also moved into my parents house at this time (we were trying to save money)

So again I felt lost and didn't know what to do. I ended up working with my dad for another 8 months but also tried to teach myself programming. I worked really hard at it but either my incapabilities of learning how to program or my excessive weed consumption hindered me. By the end of 2022 I was washing dishes and doing HVAC part time. From January 2023 to August 2023 I was doing hvac full time and worked really hard (but also making the most money i ever had and still). Driving myself and my girlfriend to work everyday and picking her up. We'd leave at 6:45 am so I could make it to work for 8, then I'd get off at 4:30 and wouldn't get home till 5:30/6. It was really stressful and I upped my weed consumption.

Well in August of 2023 I started my CAD degree at a community college and finally felt like I had found what I wanted to do and no longer felt lost and depressed. I was still kind of down cause me and my gf were stuck living at my parents (there house is kind of messy. Not like hoarders level, but more than enough to be embarrassed for company, and my parents can be kind of annoying) My exgf also finally saved up enough money to buy a car in October 2023. I was so proud of her, but also happy that I didn't have to drive her everywhere anymore.

Around 3 weeks ago she moved back in with her mom and became more distant. I asked 2 weeks ago if her heart was still in this relationship and she assured it was. Well she ended up breaking up with me a week ago and now I'm just stuck at my parents depressing house alone. I felt kind of used cause only a few months after she got her car she talked about breaking up but i fought for it, only for her to end it 5 months later. She lived rent and grocery free and i also bought her quite a lot of stuff and gave her money when she went out. I couldn't put a dollar sign on it, but it probably in the ball park of atleast 5 grand. Between the money I gave her the gifts, the groceries the bills paid. I mean way more if would to include living rent and bill free. Also not including all the time driving. I tried not to hold it over her head, but of course I had to mention cause I felt like she never reciprocated, she'd complain about chores or something but never did any. And would even complain when she couldn't find her clothes cause my mom ended up washing them for her cause she'd leave them on the bathroom floor. Just an example, she'd leave plates and dishes for another but never did any dishes ever. We got a cat together but she never did his litter or fed or gave him water But in the end still felt like she was my person, and things would be better when we were finally more established.

But now im still stuck in school and it seems like things won't get any better until I graduate next may. I doubt I'll even find a girl who's even willing to date a 24 year old who's living with his parents...and even if they are my parents make it impossible with how unclean they keep their home. I can't even just take one night stands home if I wanted. Not that I even want to take them home to my parents.

My dad's constantly asking me for help with his stuff and guilts me with his age if I try to say no (today i spent pretty much my whole saturday helping him with stuff literaly like 6 or 7 hours. I only have a few friends who never want to go out as theyve moved or we just grew apart cause i dont smoke weed anymore. I can't even smoke weed anymore cause a lot of the company's hair test for my future job and I don't want to jeopardize that.

I try to vent to my mom, but she just tells me I'm fine and everything is okay while inside I feel like I'm suffering which frustrate me even more. I turned to drinking for awhile but when I started to drink pints of hard liquor everyday, but eventually stopped cause I realized it's definitely self sabotaging behavior.

I try to just think about happy things and not get caught up just depressing myself more with sad thoughts, but I really feel my life won't improve in any meaningful aspect until I graduate like a year from now and it just sucks till then.