So here’s some more detail to my previous story. So two of my family members died while I was in school, I was working as well. One of the deaths I feel was entirely preventable. My step grandmother was sick for awhile and the signs were there but I never said anything since she was a grown woman whom I figured would be taking care of herself. However she had severe depression, I didn’t know but I had a hunch and it seemed like my mother didn’t care since she spoke so poorly of my grandma behind her back. I’m sure there were times where my grandma could hear my moms mean remarks about her. Granted my step grandmother wasn’t perfect but I felt that this was uncalled for. Well fast forward to about two years after her death, 2022, and I get a phone call from my mom where she confessed that she was an alcoholic. I didn’t react at the time, but now that I have the time to sit here and process all my failures, I am livid. How long was she drinking? Was she drinking during our times of crisis when her children needed her guidance and support?? I sit here wondering if I can ever forgive her. At the time of my fathers passing and my step grandmas passing I was 24 and 27 respectively. I was living with my mom so I could focus on paying for college. However, truth be told it was really my dad and my grandma, who’s still alive and about to turn 80, who raised me and gave me my moral compass. My moms idea of raising kids is to tell them what to do from time to time and watch tv and let technology raise her kids. TLDR: mom was on the bottle while two family members passed away, don’t know if I can forgive that.