Long story short. I am 22 years Old with a decent highschool gpa.

I have never been doing very well in school or any job ive had. eather if I’ve liked the job or not.

For the past year I’ve been almost a full time drug dealer. It is simply to easy to be better than the competition and I’ve started to make serious money which is growing to a problem.

I am clearly addicted to the money which is making me more misserable, and I feel disconnected and lonelier than ever.

Whenever I pursue a job or education, it Is like I subconsciously won’t memorize or try to pursue good results.

I am fully aware that all of this is my own fault and problem but I would like some outside input on how I can figure out a way to find a passion or competence that I can build on other than utilizing people for money.