Awhile ago I posted here because I’d lost some weight and didn’t have an outlet to celebrate. For context, I’m 30F, I have PCOS and hypothyroidism, and I’ve been overweight my entire life. I’ve dieted a million times but this is the first time I’ve lost significant weight and been able to keep it off.

I got a lot of flack because I’m doing OMAD (one meal a day) with some people saying it’s an eating disorder and I’d gain it all back as soon as I eat normally again, and honestly? I think they’re right. I think that with my body and my metabolism I can’t eat “normally” and it took me my entire life to figure this out.

I think people tend to not listen to or believe people who suffer with conditions that cause weight loss difficulty when we say it is, in fact, really fucking hard to lose weight. I was 313 pounds (5’6”) and I ate clean. I portioned. I counted calories. I went on hikes for exercise. It didn’t matter. My body cannot intake a typical amount of food without turning it into weight.

My body can, however, consume one reasonable, high protein, low carb, carefully portioned meal a day and spend the rest of the time burning it off. It works. I’m happy. I have energy. My clothes fit better. My hikes are easier.

Psychologically breaking myself of eating multiple times a day has been really challenging and sometimes I still get angry or sad when I can’t eat normally or go out to dinner or have a late night snack. The cravings can be intense. But I resist them and I persist and am ultimately a happier person. I don’t want to be skinny and I don’t hate myself, but I want to be able to go on hikes and roller skate and be comfortable, so I’m going to keep working at it until those things are mine.

Thank you for reading if you did. :)