I (32 M) went through a very dark phase in my life in my late 20’s begging of my 30’s. Drug abuse, partying, and grief were my ways of coping over the death of my father. I got lazy, out of shape, and just didn’t give a fuck about anyone or anything. I stopped caring if I’d wake up in the morning, or if I could even hold down a job (I worked construction, and hated it)

Now, over the course of time and some self healing, I’m at a very happy place in my life. I’m in shape, I work hard, and I like my job. My relationship with my family and friends is rock solid….

But I find myself terrified everyday that one little thing could change all of that and set me back to where I was not that long ago. I still feel like that’s no way to live life, and I still feel like I’m vulnerable and capable of making one catastrophic mistake, or one catastrophic life event outside of my control that can set me back to where I was.

It would be nice to hear from someone who’s in or been in a similar situation