After being alone with just my family for 3 years and then moving to another country to study.

I realised that I'm better when I'm alone with no hope for connections. As soon as I got a little taste of the social life. I've been wanting more and more.

I want more friends, someone to love, I want people around me to like me. Unfortunately, I don't get what I want, I never get what I want which makes me feel more empty.

I wish I could just run away, go to somewhere where no one is. Fucking hope, it gets me everytime. When will I understand that, it just doesn't work for me.

Some people are just meant to be alone. I'm sick of wanting the fucking basic things and never getting them.