3 years ago I (43M) saw a text come through on my ex-wife’s Apple Watch, that moment turned my whole world upside down, I was in an abusive relationship already at that point and that was the tipping point to file for divorce and leave her, the entire experience broke me to my core.

There were days on end when I struggled just to get out of bed and brush my teeth. I kept going though, mostly for my kid and animals. It took about 2 years until I was ready to try to move forward in to another life. I met someone on tinder and we hit it off.

Our relationship evolved in to something serious and I fell in love with her. That was it, I had another chance at happiness. We talked about getting married and moving in together and we were working on building a life. I had 2 hard boundaries, she couldn’t ever hit me, been there and went through that already, and if at any point in time she felt like she needed to stray just tell me so we can separate before she cheats.

Tonight I had a suspicion about her phone and I caught a text out of the corner of my eye. I pressed and pressed and she finally admitted to emotionally cheating, she said nothing physical at all, but when I asked to see the phone she had deleted a bunch of stuff, I looked further, there were at least 5 men she was talking to, plus whatever she deleted, meeting up with them after work and having sex.

I feel so crushed, hurt and violated, I was actively having unprotected sex with her while she was doing it with a half dozen other men. I feel abused by that.

I have no idea where to go from here, I didn’t think I’d be going through all this again. I’m absolutely shook and broken again right now…

Just needed to get it off my chest.