I never told my parents what I was doing for the last 3 months to survive. I did recently move back in with my parents after my father felt guilty, supposedly he was depressed the entire time I was gone along with my mother both thinking I was dead or hurt.

Prostitution Isn't that looked down upon in Japan as it is in the west. Some people will still shame you and it'll still hurt your reputation on how people will treat you depending who they are, however if you're a women in japan... it's sometimes even encouraged you become a prostitute to make some money to cover cost of something you can't pay for...as this encouragement is the very reason I resorted to this.

I wrote multiple times as what lead up to this decision and the drama of my family and why I was kicked out but each time it was extremely lengthy so instead, if anybody is interested. You're free to personally message me and I'll link you to my private blog where I wrote everything in detail. But it'll be in japanese but I think you'll be able to use a translation machine.

But just to write a little bit about it. My father was never happy what I was doing with my life, he hated I never went to university, he hated I worked at a cosplay cafe making a low salary, he hated how I stayed up all night playing video games, he especially hated when I slept in and not clean the house. I would always hear him through the walls talking to my mother how disappointed he was in me and he wasn't going to allow my little brother to end up like me and I'm a good for nothing. Shortly after my birthday he kicked me out saying he isn't going to raise a lazy, good for nothing grown women. He told me I'm a full grown adult now and he's not going to watch me waste my life. He was throwing my belongings around yelling, he found my intimate toys and yelling is this what you're spending your money on? He just shamed me and embarrassed me front of my brother and mother. I really hate remembering what he said to me because it's my father so I'll leave it there. Please massage me if you want to read everything.

After a few days staying at my ex girlfriend place in yokohama after not having a place to go once I left my parents. The idea of being a prostitute came from someone I knew at a lesbian bar/lounge I visit often. They told me if I need some extra money this company for women and ran by women is always recruiting. She told me it's a prostitute company but it's safe because it's run by a women so nothing shady or some abusive pimp that'll coke me up and have me sucking dick while high. She said she used it a couple of times and all the girls were very clean and taken care of.

She gave me the number and I called it the same night, no answer so I decided to just email them. I was staying at a ex girlfriend place for a little while but I didn't want to burden them because their house is small and not fit for two people and it's my ex girlfriend so it's really awkward being here but we stayed friends.

This company is a lesbian prostitute service that people can call and hire a girl for assortment of activities and it doesn't necessarily has to always be sex. It can just be a hang out, dating or pretending to be someone girlfriend for couple of hours. The fact it would just not be pure sex gave me confidence to call/email and I agreed to meet them next week when they got back to me. They told me they'll pick me near east exit shinjuku station if I want them to.

So after they pick me up they ask me the same questions that they wanted to know from the email. My reason for applying, my experience with women, how many women, have I been tested, where I'm from. It felt like a job interview. They asked me intimate questions such as if I'm bottom, dominant or versatile. If I'm ok with strap ones.

The interview went well and I was hired. They liked that I was already into cosplay and I dyed my hair and was sort of an otaku with long hair. The only thing they told me is that many customers like women around the age of 24 and most customers are usually women in their 30's which I said I'm ok with. I was just impressed of the flexibility of the job. It honestly felt like they cared about my well being.

Few days go by and I have yet to be booked for anybody and I was beginning to feel insecure because I was open an entire week, but after a week I did get booked with someone for 120mins. It was my first day and I was really nervous. I'm told what they ordered. Cosplay items, sex positions and needs, dates, length.

This person wanted me to cosplay in a cropped school girl outfit and they wanted to use a strap-on dildo on me, they wanted more but it'll end up sounding very nsfw. The guest sets up everything, they pick the hotel(usually in kabukicho, cost more if they request further because I'll have to travel) and pay for everything if they want to take me out. So meeting with my first client I was extremely nervous.

I had flings with random women before but it felt different because I had to follow guidelines and we were on a timer. This women was around 20 years old, looked young. We walked to the hotel they picked which was close. She didn't really want fluff talk once the timer started, she kissed me and asked let's take a bath. I won't go into detail because it'll sound like I'm writing erotica and it'll be NSFW. It's a rule we must bath together first before we can have sex for obvious reasons. So after the session was over I didn't really know how to feel. I didn't really feel much of anything other than hoping I did a good job. The thought of being a prostitute really didn't cross my mind and make me feel bad. My client seemed like she had a good time because she said she wants to reserve me again.

So after that. It's slow but I got booked more and more. Admittedly I was getting more comfortable and I was actually having fun meeting new people and making them feel good and helping their loneliness and honestly...the praises made me feel good about myself as well. I was doing this for about 3 months, the pay was nice.. I wasn't as popular as I would like but they did tell me most guest prefer the girls that are 24 and I still got booked enough to keep staying in hotels and feeding myself. I did get more foreigners than I did natives as well. Usually French, Korean and African women.

I started to miss my grandparents because I haven't seen them in a very long time so I decided to go all the way to hokkadio to see them because I've always been close to my grandparents, my grandma being the only person I told I'm attracted to women and her accepting with telling me it's ok to love who I love.

When I got there I planned to stay for awhile but then my father and mother shown up the next day. I assume my grandparents called them. My father got on his hands and knees and started apologizing telling me to come back home and he misses me. He was saying he thought I was dead because I had zero contact with my family. My mother hugged me really hard too and my little brother and they both were crying because they really all thought I was dead. I couldn't help but cry myself. So after a long talk about how he's going to change and how he shouldn't have been pushing me so hard and saying the things he said. I decided to return back home. I didn't really quit my job as a prostitute but I did ask them if they can remove my availability for the time being. Since I'm not a tokyoite and don't actually live in Tokyo. I wouldn't be able to reliability keep working unless I found an apartment (impossible) or I kept staying in the hotel I was staying at. If someone were to ask me if I actually did live in Tokyo would I keep doing this...I'm not sure...but I would for sure be open to it.