As the title says.

If you look at my post history on this sub, yes its the same girl.

I drove to work feeling normal. Then, as I parked and scanned my badge in and walked to my break room, I started feeling... Down. As I started taking off my bag and jacket, I started feeling shaky, and didn't want to talk to anyone.

After working for about 30 minutes, I felt even more shaky, felt out of breath, and felt like my heart was beating out of my chest. Yep, anxiety was kicking in. Normally I'd keep working, hide, breath, and it would go away. But it was different this time.

The more I breathed, the more I struggled. My chest started feeling tight, with a bit of a sharp pain. I didn't know what else to do. I panicked, and called my work bestie/crush. I asked if she was busy, and she said she was. I texted her privately that when she was finished to meet me in our storage area.

She came, saw something was wrong, and sat down asking me what was wrong. When did it start, why did it start. The why is a load of things, and she's kind of the reason, but I don't want to say that to her (not now at least). She started to hold me, then hug me tight. Even held my head close to hers to calm me down. She asked if I thought more about therapy (we've discussed it in the past), and I said yes. She thinks I need to find someone, a professional, and that I need to get better and be ok again.

When she said that to me I... I lost it. I started crying, and she kept hugging. I kept apologizing and she said it's ok. She didn't leave me until I said I was ok. She suggested I talk to our supervisor and maybe go home. But I didn't want to do that, more for money reasons. She asked multiple times if I was sure I was ok. When I said I was alright to go back to work, she offered to stay around me just in case. I said that wasn't necessary, but I would call as soon as I felt off again.

We've both always been there for each other. This was probably the worst she's seen me. We both feel bad going to each other for help, but we also remind each other that we're here for one another.

I texted her later thanking her for being there for me. Her response made my heart happy: "I would drop everything to make sure you're ok".

Too bad she's talking to someone else. But I'm just glad to have her in my life at all.