This week has been a rollercoaster for me emotionally I work overnight I work 12 hours 3 days And 8 hours two days on my day off I had to attend a work meeting that was useless a waste of my time I’m exhausted on my first day off I went out after I had the meeting and had a good time On my second day off I rested Today should be my first day back at work for a 12 hour shift But I cannot stop crying I’m unhappy at my job which i can’t leave because it is the best paying jobs where I live I bust my ass at my job for nothing I get taxed a lot because I’m not married I don’t have kids and I can’t afford a house or rent eve bc with my pay I cannot fathom having to go in early and have to deal with coworkers and the job itself I cannot control my emotions today I am balling my eyes out, I feel like throwing up, I cannot control my facial expressions involving being miserable I have work in 30 minutes and I cannot gather the strength to tell my boss that I’m crying and miserable I have thought of self harm I don’t know what to do I feel alone I wish I just had someone to simply tell me what to do and what to do of my life