I’ve (19M) had relationships and I’ve always been the one to ruin it since I’ve just never been great at relationships.

At the same time, I’m very good at looking after kids since I’ve grown up being the youngest in my family by a big age gap so I’ve grown up occasionally looking after nieces and nephews, plus I can be pretty childish so I enjoy playing with kids or showing movies to them.

So the thought of adopting a kid when I grow up to be a single dad does come to me quite a lot and I think it’d be fun, HOWEVER I’m also against the idea of having a child who grows up with friends who have mothers and feeling left out.

I want to have kids, but I don’t want to be selfish by depriving them of a mother, but I also don’t think I’d be any good in a relationship. That’s my limbo and I do wonder if I’m alone or not in this similar situation.