What even is goal drive?

Goal driven means to strive to meet one’s highest potential. Always trying for self betterment, never becoming completely complacent. Never letting those just be, or accepting the way things are. Having this breakthrough has really enlighten me in ways that I didn’t know was possible; I’d given up on myself. Never thinking that I wouldn’t be able to achieve my dreams. I know that they will be a struggle but I can handle it. It seems like most people in life don’t strive to be better; they just strive to find someone to be with because they don’t have to be lonely or they need to make their own imagination into a reality in their personal lives.

It’s funny to think that after years of being with someone, both of us bending backwards for each other only to be left behind to play a pretend game with someone because they’ve label themselves. Funny thing about labels, they can change and grow over time. After reading the Reddit post that he made about his girlfriend was extremely laughable. It isn’t realistic dream world he is living in, but it’s sadden to see that he’s come this far and if he still wants to achieve the goals he laid out for himself. Is this just a distraction? A waste of time for him? I’ll be logging into BLANK website in the next couple of minutes to see what’s going on. Maybe she’s grounded, I think that’s pretty funny in itself, her having a 4 year old child. But at 29 she’s letting a 40 year old dictate her life. Sad, but true.

Nothing, just as I suspected. I think that has given me all I needed. The new relationship is more important than having or dealing with a broken one. Moving on has been quite the journey for me. It was and is very hard, let enlightening. I’ve found the power in myself, the fire in myself once again. Now it’s time for me to take that fire and go into the world.

But in ways I still have to be kind to myself and heal the rest of my open wounds. Sleeping with no lights on, going to the to the bathroom with no lights on at night, being able to get my own food without any fear of things being unclean. I still need to make a list of things that I need to accomplish, but with greatness comes responsibilities; and I’m finally ready to take them on.

I don’t need a platform to tell me what I am anymore, my life isn’t a bunch of drop down boxes. I don’t feel like I need to find someone to date, I’m happy with myself; I don’t feel lonely. I think I’m coming around to being closer to self mastery.