Something about spending nye alone that just really makes you feel like a social failure. I don’t really have friends and no one invited me anywhere. my closest friend decided to spend it with his coworkers and didn’t want to invite me. my other closest friend, who i live with, decided to stay in and spend it with her boyfriend. i lied to her and told her i had plans with coworkers because i couldn’t bring myself to tell her i had no plans and would most likely be ringing in the new year alone in my room. i’m currently sitting in my car, parked in some random apartment complex waiting for enough time to pass so they’ll think i actually went out. the year before i also thought i’d spend it with my closest friend but he went to a party with his roommates and didn’t invite me. i rang in the new year in my room, smoking by myself. all the years before that i spent nye with my immediate family (mom,dad,and sister). we don’t really get along and as i got older i used to wonder when the years would come that i’d spend nye with friends, out having fun somewhere, like young people are supposed to. and it just still hasn’t happened. i wonder if i’ll ever get a really fun, great new year’s eve. here’s to hoping 2024 brings better things.