Hi I’m F,21. Since I was young I have found myself being the one to always pursue a relationship. I would continuously try with guys in high school but as soon as I slept with them they would just leave. I understand young men want just that one thing most of the time but the same boys who I wanted a relationship with would say they don’t want a relationship but I’d see them weeks or months later with another girl in school. For example, a guy I liked I went back to his house and we did things, I thought he may have liked me back but the next day I saw him in school with another girl and they ended up getting together in the end. Why didn’t he go for me and why didn’t he want me ? Why did he choose me for a one time thing but chose her to be in a relationship with? I am currently 21 and in a 4 year relationship and I am very happy but I still struggle sometimes with my insecurities and wonder does my boyfriend really even want me because of my past trauma of being used and left.