The only success I’ve seen is in BED, which is what I have. I’ve tried so many times to not eat, but I just can’t do it. I even hoped that being put on Adderall for medical reasons would help me, and it didn’t curb my appetite at all.

I am so tired of being fat and my body actively working against me to lose weight (hormonal and insulin resistance issues). I’m tired of being physically ugly to everyone I meet, and automatically being assumed to be romantically undesirable. It makes me incredibly depressed, despite being on antidepressants, and it feels like no matter what I do, I’m always going to be this way: fat, ugly and unsuccessful.