Edit: WARNING I accidentally posted this on the wrong account, but I don't feel right reposting, this is a NSFW account.

Edit 2: She is not deceased, I didn't intend to title bait or belittle anyone's struggles with a deceased partner. I apologize from the bottom of my heart, if you're reading this and going through that, you're welcome to reach out and I'll try to help as much as I can. 😞❤️ I cannot imagine the struggle.

Sorry if you're reading this, I have no friends anymore after moving and I need to vent. It's rambling and horrible to read, I need to just get this out in the universe, and maybe I'll feel better.

Im a military husband, and usually she doesn't have to be gone for too long, except this last time. It's been a few weeks, and there's only 9 days left until she gets home, but between the horrible wifi and everything I'm lucky if I get to exchange a few messages back and forth for a half hour at most.

Up until a few days ago it's been hard, but lately it's getting insufferable. I rarely ever cry, but I've spent the whole last day bawling my eyes out because I miss her so much. It's making it near impossible to do anything because I can't focus. I can barely sleep.

We opened our relationship because we are both into that, and figured it may help with the loneliness, but the few exchanges i have had have just reinforced how amazing she is. If someone happens to read this and has any experience with this, or tips to try and help, please. I'm a wreck.