I (23M) wouldn't call myself unique, but I do have a problem of sporadic anger, which has led to me in some hot water sometimes. But I wasn't expecting this to happen during normal conversations between others. There was a group of people who were talking about me, and the conversation never deviated from "Man I wish he is dead and gone so I don't have to see him again", which upsets me. The more I listen into others who I met, the more common these kinds of opinions are. This lead to me thinking that if I am a subhuman undeserving of kindness, because if these kinds of opinions are the norm, then would it be ethical if someone came along and end my life, as a declaration of peacekeeping?

People avoid me, people refrain from interacting me if possible. People also put up this "Get the fuck out I'd rather be with someone else instead" face when I'm around. I never seen anyone who is actually kind to me. No matter what I do, people gravitate towards others because my knowledge and experience amount to fuck all. Sometimes I don't know if killing me is considered a heroic act.