I love him with all my heart, but he doesn’t care anymore. I know he loves me, he tells me everyday but it’s like the passion just isn’t there anymore. He doesn’t initiate sex anymore… when he does it’s so dry, no kissing or foreplay. He never takes me out, we just moved to Florida in December of last year & we’ve been out once… for Father’s Day & that was me taking him out for the day. Sometimes I just don’t know… we’re in a good space then we’re not, something will trigger me & im just reminiscing on the past things he’s don’t that hurt me. From him cheating, to after I had our first child he wouldn’t even touch me for months but would be on Reddit watching & commenting on porn subs, to giving me a STD. Yes I know I probably should have been left… he’s my first love & I know nothing else but him… I’m so scared if I leave him no body will want me, I have 2 kids with him, he’s all I’ve ever known since I was 18. I just needed to get this off my chest, as I type this I already know what decision I have to make but i just needed it off my chest.