I'm 35 and too old for this anyway. I don't even want to type this.

We met for coffee last month and haven't seen each other in years but kept in sporadic contact. We live in different states. She straight up mentioned that she's getting busier and it may be difficult to meet nowadays. Her schedule clears up in February. All good with me. I'll reach out to see if she's available when I'm around.

Basically, the times I told her I'm available, she said she can't "swing it" because of school and other things. And I belive her, too. Totally cool with me. If she did reject me, man, I haven't felt this "rejection" feeling in years and it makes me want to up myself and go after my dreams and live my life!

I'm too old for this anyway.