Every since I (m19) have been in middle school and started learning about men, women and sex I was more attracted to my teachers than any of my girls classmate. Dated a few girls through highschool school when it was clear to me that I liked girls older than me. The bigger the age gap the more I wanted them. I've always been pretty tall for my age and multiple people told me I looked Older than my age and that I was more mature than my friends. I was over six feet by the age of 14 and it lead to me having my first time at 16 at a college party I snuck in with a group of friends. The problem with my preference in women is that generally they don't like younger mens. Dating is hard, even texting them is hard. Occasionally you get one in need of a boy toy, which I don't mind, but they're so few and far between. Online is the only place where I meet a few people but it's rare and dating sites are ruthless. Many women I would love to get to know don't even have their age preference set to my age so I get a match every 2 months if any. I know what people will say: "it's just a fantasy" well it probably is but I've been like this ever since I developed attraction for the opposite sex so much that I would marry a woman 20 years my age if I really love her without thinking about it. I know there's nothing wrong with me but I I hate it, not my preference itself but the fact that it's 2x harder for me to date than the average men who already has it pretty rough.