Note: I am fully aware of the more vanilla folks who will comment and the purists who will claim I'm what's wrong with society. Allow yourself some silence.

I've been in the consensual hypnosis and BDSM scene for over 4 years, and I'm quite appalled with men's dishonest wishes for submission. I have a process of screening, getting to know them, ensuring desires and lifestyles match accordingly, and right when the day comes for me to enrich their lives - they ghost. It's as though the fabric of their being is unconsciously misogynistic, and giving up control strikes fear in their hearts.

Now, at first I thought it was because they couldn't afford it. Similar to a life coach, my work isn't just all play as I create schedules for their well being, custom rewards for behavior and lists of their quirks. You'd think that they would be craving a dynamic where their overburdened minds and bodies are made into mush and then rejuvenated.. It's a confusing pattern, one of which I imagine extends to other facets of life. It also affects my business, as I am no instagram model using my body to override the vast knowledge needed to properly Dominate.

It's incredibly frustrating.