i think i'm gonna delete this soon cause why not

basically the title. i've always been a lonely girl, but lately i've been feeling more than ever.

in high school i was friends with my classmates, but since school finished i haven't heard from anyone at all. i tried texting someone, but they just wouldn't answer or turn down my invites to go out together. only ONE girl said yes and we went out. fucking 1 out of ~10 other people that i asked said yes.also right now, everyone is organising summer vacations and trips with friends, while i have to go alone because nobody wants me.

honestly i wouldn't say i'm ugly, maybe i'm not a 10/10, but still i can't seem to get along with people. the thing is, what is that keeps people far away from me?

in my life i only had a bf, who i feel like he only used me, so i've been emotionally numb since we separated and i never had a relationship after that.i need affection, but every time i bring up that i love girls they run away like i was a monster. every 🏳️‍🌈 girl that i know of is either already in a relationship or not interested in having one. whenever i get to talk to someone i feel like they are not interested also before i start speaking.

i'm here because i have no one to talk to irl, my parents are kinda oldfashioned?? so everything i say sounds crazy to them, and i end up being "the silent one".

i NEED someone to talk to. i REALLY need one.