I feel very conflicted right now as I was informed by my dad that due to an ongoing (and I thought dealt with family emergency), he and I could take our full vacation before heading home; turns out that is not the case, as he informed me this morning that in a few days he would be flying back home in order to help manage things there, he also told me I could stay were I am currently until the end of the month as we had originally planned and that I could go back on my own (I think that is what might be intimidating me as I have never flown commercially by myself, I get anxious just thinking about it).

I feel torn between being where I am and spending time with siblings I do not get to see very often and going home to help as much as I am able to; I am also holding out hope that my younger sister can find a solution to this where none of our family have to worry any longer about what is going on (I don’t mention specifics as I do not know if anyone who might see this knows me or my family).