I feel so sad. I met him on Reddit. We've been together for a month and talking for a few months before that. It isn't much time, but he's become such a big part of my life. Especially when we were dating but even before then.

I feel confused. I feel like I was hit with this conversation tonight with no preparation. It's funny cuz the conversation started on a totally different tone. We were being sweet and cute together. He was saying that I made him happy. I asked him if there was anything I could do for him and he said no.

Then we started talking about our emotions and that was when the conversation took a turn. I guess we both expressed some doubts. Well I didn't really express doubts. He was saying that the LDR was hard for him. This made me scared and doubtful and wonder if he would eventually break up with me because of the LDR. We're going to need to be in an LDR for several years at least. He's in college and part of me thinks that he's going to meet someone at college. Anyway I told him he shouldnt feel pressured to stay in our relationship if it isn't working out.

That was when the tone of the conversation seemed to change. He started expressing more doubts. He's also expressed doubts before sort of. One time at least. He said he was "finding it hard to picture our future" but we were fine later that day so I didn't think too much of it. He said more things like this (today). He wondered about our long-term compatibility. He said he didn't want to waste my time, didn't really give specific reasons, then said that he felt he didn't have enough time for himself while he was in our relationship and my demands for time and emotional demands might be too much for him, and speculated about whether our relationship would work out.

I guess this isn't him breaking up with me, probably. We were fine earlier that day - even earlier in the conversation! I guess "I don't know if we can work out" isn't the same thing as "I want to break up". Still, I don't know what to expect. I feel blindsided by these concerns. I feel like we can resolve them but my boyfriend seems less hopeful.

I don't know what to expect in the morning. My boyfriend is asleep right now. This often happens. He gets to sleep while I am plagued by anxious thoughts. That's not quite fair, I know his days are so full that he's very tired at the end of the day. I don't know what to expect tomorrow. Will we be fine? Will he really want to break up?

Will I wake up to a text tomorrow saying "sorry, it's over"? It's funny I've been plagued by anxiety about our relationship ending almost since it began and it's weird to be possibly there for real especially since I spent so long worrying when there was nothing really to worry about, or maybe there was, that's hard to say. Or will we be fine tomorrow?

And what about the issue that he's raised, will we be able to resolve it?

I miss my boyfriend so much.

I feel scared