Knowing I am depressed, knowing I can’t get help or be on meds, and not having anyone to talk to about it makes me feel miserable.

I can function fairly well while in public, but I always seem to end up having intrusive thoughts like, “Look at everyone here, no one cares, least of all about me.”, or “Why can no one stop for even one second and say hi, or ask how I am feeling?”, and these thoughts make me feel even worse as I feel like I am being selfish and self-centered by wanting at least one person to talk to on a regular basis.

All of this has led me to self-isolate, to not even attempt to talk to anyone and to believe no one wants to talk to me; what is worse is that I have attempted to break out of this cycle and have ended up being rebuffed, being told flat out that the person I tried talking to has zero interest (this will get flak, but part of it is due to my being a single guy and the person I tried talking to a single mother).