For as long as I can remember, I’ve always wanted to be a father and it still hasn’t happened and now I’m 30 years old and my prospects are not looking good...

The weather is getting nice and when I see cute happy families outside in the sun, it just really hurts my heart. I’m happy for them! I am! But there’s so much jealousy because I want that so badly for myself. Idc how that comes off. I’m man enough to admit it.

And a friend from high school is having a child now and I’m....just....so freaking jealous once again

“It’ll happen when you least expect it!” “Keep focusing on yourself!” “You’re going to make a great father one day!”

All those things are pleasant to hear but I’ve just heard them all so much it means nothing any more...

idek why I even post on here, its literally just an invitation for the average reddit user to look at my post history and become and arm chair psychologist lol