I’ve never made a reddit post so this is a first. Anyways i decided to to download this and maybe see if people could relate. I’m 20, male, Id say i grew up a pretty average life and blessed to always have both parents there to support me. I’ve never really had trouble making friends and have always been a social person. Even though this is the case i’ve always felt alone. I’ve moved several times bouncing schools and also friends. We moved right before i went into highschool which was great because it meant a fresh start after having a shit time in middle school. I’ve always had confidence but it grew when i got put in a healthy environment in highschool. Everything went well, i made friends, was a starter on the soccer team and even got to experience a lot of things that maybe other people didn’t.

Despite things going well in my life i still felt alone. I thought getting a girlfriend would help which it did for awhile until things got hard between us. Even with her i felt alone. Unfortunately she used the vulnerability that i would express against me which only made things worse between us. We made some great memories with each other and i learned about the things i do and don’t want in future relationships. Since then i’ve made sure to just be 1% better than i was yesterday. I’ve changed completely from then to now in the best way possible. I don’t drink, i don’t want to party anymore, i’m more focused on my goals mental and physical, have gained self worth and i’m building the foundation to a life that i will be proud of. I’m very proud of myself which it’s taken 20 years to finally say that. It just sucks that even in a time where people feel more connected i feel a big disconnect between myself and my generation. I don’t like partying and getting fucked up because im more interested in my future. That’s one of the reasons why i feel so alone lately. Also Id be lying if i said i didn’t want a lady in my life either lol. I find it very hard to find a girlfriend mainly because dating culture has shifted into hooking up with randoms and not facing any consequence. It’s hard to find people that see value in me so it’s even harder to find a partner that would see that value as well. (Side note: I fucking hate dating apps and bar culture which is kinda the way people date nowadays)

Other people have way bigger problems so i don’t have anything to complain about. But Idk the last couple weeks have been a big struggle. No matter what i’m going to continue with my mission but damn sometimes i feel like giving up. Even with all the things going for me, i feel incredibly alone and downright invisible. i could move halfway across the world and nobody would notice or even care. i’m very empathetic and will always help people in need. It just sucks when i’m always trying to help but no one cares to help me. I just need someone to look me in my eyes and tell me that they see me, that they care. Maybe someone could relate to this. Anyways thanks for hearing me rant much love❤️