I won’t forget Those sunny days Walking down the road From your place

I won’t forget Those summer nights Where we sang karaoke At the local bar

I won’t forget my first festival Tripping in the woods Walking hand in hand Everything so magical

I won’t forget That night at the club Dancing and drinking all night With our newfound friends

I won’t forget The night it was just you and me Alone in your room Tripping until early morning Bearing our souls to one another

I won’t forget The day you finally told me the truth And how you didn’t seem to feel Any remorse, no empathy For killing a creature That did nothing to you

I won’t forget The cruel words you said to me Just because you were enraged

I won’t forget The fear I felt Every time you threatened me

I won’t forget When you pushed me As I was trying to leave Because I did something again To make you angry

How can I forgive you? I don’t think it’s possible you will have To answer for what you did Through the next life If there is such a thing

There will always be an ache in my heart Because I felt bonded to you In a way I wasn’t to anyone before you And yet you were a demon dressed up As a beautiful person To teach me the hardest lesson I’ve had to learn

I feel wrong for still having feelings of attachment and not fully wanting to let go. I knew this person off and on since we were 17. It hurts so much but with my family I have to pretend I don’t still miss him sometimes. It’s so fucked to still want someone after they literally killed your dog. I’m trying my hardest to deal with all the unresolved feelings, but it’s been a struggle.