To clear things up, i (NB18) could never love anyone more. He (M20) is everything and more i could ever ask for and i truly see him as my soulmate. We’ve never fought and always communicate. He brings me so much peace that no one else ever could. Truly is the only male in my life that has ever treated me with respect and has genuinely loved me. My cousin (F56), who i currently live with, does not like him at all. She constantly complains about how much time i spend with him and how i disrespect her and her house. Me and her are not on the best of terms as she gave me a notice that i was to be out of her house the day after i graduate. I feel confined to this house and she is slowly starting to make me dislike being around anyone at all, including my boyfriend. I feel as if i can never be happy with my family still around and forcing me to live a life i dont see for myself, and my boyfriend is the complete opposite. He’s independent, lives away from family, and can make his own choices. I feel so insecure because of how different our lives are at the moment, and i wish i was able to spend more time with him that he is very vocal about. With other problems arising in both of our lives at the same time, i am convinced that i am cursing him in someway and feel as if everything were to be resolved if we separate. But i would never dream of leaving him in a million years. If it weren’t for him moving out of state soon to pursue his career as a director, i would love to be with him for the rest of my life. I would rather wait until he moves to separate (I cannot handle long distance relationships) but i cant see myself being with anyone else. And with how my life is now, i unfortunately cant move away with him. I don’t want to stop him from achieving his goals, but i truly wish we were able to spend more time together, without the lingering feeling that me seeking happiness is taboo. And waiting for the day to come that we do indeed separate is miserable. He’s truly saved my life and i don’t know where id be without him.