Ok so here goes this is NSFW. Ok so things have been emotional roller coaster. So I found a coworker of fetlife that said they swing. I used to swing when I was in my 20s before I met my wife. My wife has been talking about wanting to have sex with another woman. She is bi. Well I informed her of the coworker and she was hesitant but was willing to go out. So things got a little touchy Feely at work. Well we go out with the other couple and the guy has zero interest in my wife and of course my wife did not have fun and it hurt her to see me rubbing the other females back. The next morning we talked about what happened and what was wrong. So now I have this empty spot from the last few days and for play from the lady at work. I am depressed as I pulled back because my wife could not handle me touching the other lady even though she said it was ok. In this my wife also confessed that she had sex with her best female friend 2 time while I was gone on work trips. I am so lost i just burried the want to be a swinger almost pushing in to a pollyamory(sp). I can hurt my wife like happened the other night I am just hurt. My wife is 6 years younger than me and gets to stay at home. I need something to fill the polly part of my needs but not loose my wife of 7 years.