I won't go into too much detail on everything but yes, he used the usual cliche script every marry man uses. I was just getting out of my own marriage (finally leaving but i had fallen out of love with him a long time before that) when i met him and i had never been with another man other than my now ex husband. I was really naive and the story he told me was so similar to my own situation at the time that i believed it. Now i know better of course but it doesn't change what happened. When i finally found out for sure that he was in fact very much still with her. I told her everything. They're still together.

This post is just my way to get this out. I'm sure i might be judge and that's fine. I just feel so stupid for ever believing anything he ever told me. He said he loved me. He made me feel like no one had ever made me feel. To think everything was a lie. He gets to keep going, living his normal life while I'm here drowning in sadness and guilt and jealousy. I hate that i am jealous of her. I hate that i still miss him and want to see him and hear his voice. I know I'm sounding like a dramatic teenager rather than the grown woman i am but I'm not sure how else to describe what I'm feeling.

I love him I miss him And i wish time was faster and kinder so that i could finally forget and move on.