I (f28) just recently found out my girlfriend (f25) died due to a car accident. I'm currently out traveling for work and am stuck without a way to go to her funeral. I am beyond emotionally upset and cannot handle anything right now without feeling the upmost despair.

I hadn't heard from her the past couple days and i thought at first she had lost her phone , then at one point I thought she could have been mad at me for anything. I kept reaching out to her wondering why I wasn't getting a response especially since her birthday had just happen like 3 days before. I even called her job but no one answered.

And then her best friend yesterday found me on Facebook and told me she was gone.

I keep now running through my mind what if somehow I called or texted her and maybe slightly distracted her and caused this. They say it was caused by ice and she ran head on into someone else but I can't help but envision what those few moments could have been like for her. I keep playing different scenes in my head of how she could have looked after, if she was in any pain, how she knew she couldn't avoid what was about to happen. I can't shake it. It's eating me up and I have not felt this dark in a long time.