That’s it and I know there’s nothing I can do about it, but it just feels like I am not, and can never be, who I was really supposed to be.

Don’t get me wrong, I have a very good life, great family and friends and a fulfilling career. I am looked up to and definitely a more manly man, but ever since I can remember I’ve had dreams where I was turned into a girl and had an underlying wish that I had been born female instead of male. I’ve always had more close female friends, and of my god I’d give anything to be one of them. I feel like I am a pretty intuitive person… is it weird that I wish I could be a more girly girl? A wife? A mother?

No one knows, and I don’t know if I’d ever be able to talk about this with anyone irl, because I don’t identify as trans or anything like that… it’s just like, it is what it is.

Haha… I know there are other people out there who feel like this and holy hell wouldn’t it just be everything if we could meet and swap bodies, even just for a while?

I know no one else like me irl, and it’s so lonely.

Anyway, thanks for reading