Have you ever backed out of a connection because you were scared? Like, have you ever felt that the person you click with might judge you based on how you look, especially without clothes? Or been anxious about not being able to keep a conversation flowing and worried that they might leave because of it? Have you ever been afraid that someone might avoid you because you’re still figuring things out in life? And have you ever been terrified of meeting someone for the first time and messing up their expectations of you? That’s pretty much what I’m dealing with, and it’s all this overthinking. It’s like my mind’s running in circles, convincing me that every little thing could go wrong. I’m caught up in all these what-ifs and fears, and it makes it hard to really connect with people. I know it’s all in my head, but it’s a struggle to shake off those worries and just be present. Is there anyone out there dealing with the same kind of stuff? Do you think there’s a chance that you and I could connect, maybe find some common ground in these struggles? I’d love to connect and maybe push each other to grow and overcome these hurdles together.

Hello, nice to meet you! You can call me Ken. I’m still learning basic social skills in my 20s that most people seem to develop by the time they’re 12, LOL. So, bear with me as I test the waters again with another post after finishing up my summer semester. I've met a lot of people on here, and while the connections were okay, I’ve often been ghosted. I’ve come to expect that, as people seem to expect perfection, which I’m far from. That’s why I’m detailed in my posts to set clear expectations and avoid disappointment. I feel like I’m always growing up, even though I’m technically grown. Your first impression of me might be "boring" but that’s more about my overthinking and antisocial tendencies. I’m usually relaxed but quiet due to limited social interaction. I suspect I might have OCD and possibly ADHD, but I haven’t been diagnosed yet.

I’ve never experienced a relationship, had my first kiss, or had a deep conversation with someone. I long for a genuine connection and the chance to experience love and silly moments with someone. I always wanted to call someone my best friend even though I lack IRL friends myself. I enjoy quiet company and believe that comfort is key to good communication. My life has been a journey through depression, anxiety, and the weight of family issues. which has made me wary of people and affected my self esteem. My family has often placed their problems on me, making me the scapegoat for their issues. This has made my social anxiety worse and impacted my self development. That is part of the reason why I'm starting late to a lot of things in life. But despite the challenges, I’m grateful for what I have and am committed to self improvement.

I’m currently finishing my first year of college studying for a technology degree and have lost a significant amount of weight. While I don’t have the “ideal” body that some might look for, I’m feeling better about myself lately, which is important to me. Losing a lot of weight comes with some loose skin that isn't major. It is something I'm working on. Self care also plays a major role in my well being.

I was born and raised in NYC. I’m 5'9, with a mix of American, Jamaican, and British heritage. I wear glasses. I'm on a weight loss journey and staying committed to improving my health. I don’t have tattoos or piercings. I don’t smoke or use drugs, and I maintain good hygiene. I occasionally drink and would enjoy a casual drinking partner. I’m open to having children in the future, which is important.

I take pride in dressing well and have a bright smile, often with a playful, silly attitude. I love trolling and being petty in a fun, harmless way and am open to all types of humor. I’m an extremely introverted person who can be shy and awkward, but I value kindness, respect, and supporting others. I also wanted to make it clear that I'm not that intelligent, but I have common sense! I'm a bit of a nerd though. Gaming is a big passion of mine, especially PC games and nostalgic 2D games. I also enjoy watching streams, YouTube, anime, and reading manga. Nature fascinates me, and while I’m not always comfortable outdoors, I’m eager to explore new interests.

If any of this resonates with you, feel free to reach out. I’d love to find someone who understands and might be dealing with similar challenges. I don't do long distance since I'm trying to get my life in order... so traveling probably won't happen... unless it's by train.