Been a nurse for 7yrs - now a days that’s a long time apparently.

My last shift shouldn’t have been difficult or so painstakingly annoying but it was.

Getting report and MAPS 60s. Then dipped to 55s. I called and the provider goes what does the note say ? (New PA). She hangs up.

I call again —- she said we will be there when we round. Says do the fluid leg raise and in a snotty voice do you know what that means ? LITERALLY.

I call again. Literally 1hr 30min goes by like this.

During this whole time HF, end stage Liver disease, shitting himself with liquid BMs and struggling to breath on 4L/NC.

I asked for rectal tube, RT asked for HF. PA said sating fine. And she denied my rectal tube.

Annoying part the PCT doesn’t really help and apparently got told not to clean patients only nurses can ??? Thankfully I had another nurse abt to go up on flow (HF Inserted) as we turned the guy bc I was wiping them down.

I asked rectal tube 3x. The third time she called another nurse next to me and asked r they really having liquid diarrhea. And when the nurse said yes finally only 3hrs left of shift I was able to place one in.

This is my 3rd week almost on the floor and I AM DONE. The providers treat you with no respect literally and think you don’t know crap. I guess experience has been all new grads ?!

I’m done working nights, done eating like shit and being depressed. I’ve done travel, local and crisis contracts - where everyone is on the same team. Providers, nurses.

Literally this one very new nurse when I was giving her report was like what do you mean 2 for PERRLA ? You mean 2mm ?

I was so caught off guard bc I’ve always said that. And had the audacity to correct me and say no. Yet when u look it up it’s 2 ?? You do say plus !

I went from micu to cvicu. But everywhere it’s the same shit. 💩 I’m sorry I really am. Maybe I’m too spoiled idk but this last shift was a slap in the face. I’ve had similar patient etiology and it was dealt with definitely not like this. Which is the part that’s killing me.

*** and yes if you look at my previous posts I’ve decided MD route.

I really just wanna put my 2 weeks in. But I already set up my schedule for the next 2 months … so I’ll just hold out and then tell them. 😭😭😭😭

I don’t want to regret holding onto this “cvicu level 1 great hospital over my mental and physical health.”