all i want is for a man to fuck me like if they were any farther apart from me than inside me he’d lose his mind from how much he wants me. i want to feel like something truly precious to someone, something he’d never let go of, something he’d own and take care of and show off. i want him to own my body, mind, heart and soul. i want him to fuck me like he loves me. i want a man to love me this way. in a way that my entire body can experience and give in to.

every hour i think about sex. sex with a man that treats me like a princess. i wanna be his good little girl. his prized possession. his babygirl. his fuck toy. his dirty little slut. his cock worshipping slave. his whole world. i want him to fuck me till i'm unconscious and then wake me up with more and fall deeper in love with him with every stroke. i want him to breed me. i want to be available for him to feel good using my body all the time.

i'm insatiable. i wanna be fucked and filled every meal time. midnight snack. morning coffee. mid day pick me up. he would make me forget i've ever had sex with anyone but him.

i want him to be my Daddy. i’ve been into DDLG the moment i learned about it. it’s a lifestyle. i want it. i want a man who’ll take care of me and love me and reassure me that i’m okay. that i’m his perfect little girl. that the only thing he’ll ever want in life is me. that everything he does is to make me happy.

but this is unhealthy and in other ways manipulating. i have borderline personality disorder and i know this is just a fantasy of extreme attachment. i still want it to be real. i still want to find a man who will do all of the above for me. love every fucking molecule of my matter. i want to matter so much to him it almost hurts.

i’m sure there must be something wrong with me. something underlying the trauma of my childhood, i’ve always felt so incredibly helpless to loneliness. i’ve always wanted someone to love me unconditionally and unwaveringly. there’s so much to unpack but this would be too long and too complicated. i don’t know what to do. i don’t think i’ll ever achieve this fantasy. i got close and by the end of what felt like a dream realized was just a fucking falsely perceived reality.