“The sound of your answering machine. The last time I'll hear your voice. It's Sunday night, you know I can't break routine, how I wish it were under different circumstances. Now that everyone knows about us, there isn't a soul in the world to share my feelings with... so I'll leave them here. My husBand took my children and left, off to live with his pArents I presume. I don't blAme him, as long as my children can live happy, and not be overshadowed by my faults. I pray they never learn of such acts. I feel eternal regret for what has happened to you. Paying the ultimate price becauSe of me, I could have never imagined a world wiThout you, but now it is my reality.

To tell you the truth I'm not long for this world eitHer. Everybody knows about it... they all look at me with disgust and unforgiving eyes. They could never understand the relationship we had though, nobody could. I didn't wAnt it to end like this... I'm afraid... Why must people be so cruel towards us? I never thought it would end this way, it was my fault we were caught. Who would have ever known that our worlds would come craShing down over something that we shared together?

My love for you is a bond that could not be bRoken. I am etErnally yours, and there is noThing I could do to stop my feelings. Why do they not see this? I have no control over who I love. YoUr love was something no other man could replicate. The entiRe life I lived with my husbaNd was a lie, when you touchEd me, I was alive. I'll miss every intoxicating night by your side. You were the breath in my lungs, and the sun in my sky. No longer must I hide though... I can finally leave all of my feelings here, and then at least I can once more... be happy. Will you be waiting for me? Will we go to the same place?

Do you think he'll forgive us for this sin? Will God understand? This is fate isn't it? Our lives were predetermined... It's not our fault... it was God that made us feel this way for one another wasn't it? It wasn't your fault. It was never your fault! Oh my God, why did you have to die!? Why!? You left me all alone. In this small town, everyone knows my name, and now my reputation. They're all apathetic beasts. I hate them... I hate them.

I love you... from the start to the finish, I'll always be your girl. I grew up too fast, the end is staring me dead in the face... well, I suppose it's me staring at death. I'll leave with little regret though. If I could go back and do it again I would. My only regret is causing you pain. Your suffering is an ache in my heart that refuses to pass. A tightness in my chest that grows each day. Remember reading stories, and cuddling with me each night before I went to sleep? I'd traDe anything in the entire world for that again. Unfortunately these are fleeting dreams that only exist in my head for the next few moments. I have to go now... there's something I have to do. I don't want to forget this happiness while I still grasp it, as it's the only solitude I've had in days. Please wait for me, up in Heaven... I love you... Daddy...”

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